This was sent to me through email from Whitney about yesterday’s blog posting. I felt it was too great to just leave in my inbox. I wont even explain my interpretation of this. I just love it and think that it needs to be read:
Great Post today!
Awesome post this morning. We haven’t talked much in depth, but learning where my true power resides, in my freedom to choose, has been a deliberate journey and education. Yes, we get to decide what our experience is going to be. That being said, putting what I know to use in a consistent manner in CrossFit has seemingly been a real challenge at times. I think this is because the WODs elicit such a strong flight or fight response, and they sometimes takes me to the edge of my consciousness with regard to death. Feeling like I can’t breath can sometimes feel scary. Over these past six or so months, this is what I’ve noticed most — my response to rapid, heavy, deep breathing, and an increased heart rate. This is interesting to me because breath is life energy, and what I can see about myself is how much “life” I’ve been willing to allow through me. I ask myself why more life would be scary; and, what others ways am I living that restrict more life energy. I believe and know there is only One, and how I do one thing is how I do everything. What I’ve also noticed is that much of the “how” has largely remained unconscious, until now — or a least sub-conscious. When I’m in the middle of a WOD that is particularly painful or difficult, it’s not the physical aspects that are challenging, it’s the mental. For me, I think it’s mainly about learning how to move through the fear of not being able to breath, and of dying — even though I know that’s not going to happen. I have sat with the question for weeks, “How do I get from here (my current experience) to there (where I want to be)?” I know how to do this in almost every other area of my life, but it appears there is still something for me to embrace, learn, and release in applying it to the gym. I love this about CrossFit. I love that it’s my teacher in this way. It’s like taking a good hard look in the mirror of truth and seeing that this is how I show up in my life. Hard core.
I want to take this moment to point out to everyone that there is a place to leave comments about the blog posting down at the bottom of the page. I get a lot of private emails,… most of which I think would be best suited for everyone to see and learn from.
10 Overhead Squats (95/65)
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